I've been kind of downish lately. I can't really put my finger on the cause. It could be that I'm still getting used to having two kids and my time being stretched more thinly than before. It could be that I could spend all day cleaning my house and five minutes after I finished it would be a mess again, thus making my day totally pointless. It could be that this time of year is always hard for me because I miss fall so much. Silly to miss a season, but I do. It could be that sometimes I just feel so isolated out here. Nowhere to go, no one to see. It could be any number of things really. I know I have everything to be thankful for, and nothing to complain about, but you know, sometimes you just hit a slump. I'm sure it will pass soon, but this period of semi-gloom has made me realize something. For the past little while I've been working on teaching myself to sew. I don't really remember why I started, why now it was interesting to me, whereas in high school when my mom was trying to teach me I kinda didn't care. I guess I thought it would give me something to do, but I feel like it's become something more than that. I love looking at fabric, imagining what it could be. Starting a project and seeing it through. Having something tangible when I'm done. Successfully doing things I wasn't sure I would be able to do. Browsing fabric and quilt ideas online have become some of my favorite activities. Words are not my friends, so I'm not fully able to convey what I'd like to. I guess it just comes down to the fact that amidst all the diaper changing and futile cleaning, sewing has become a part of my day I look forward to. It's my motivation for getting the no fun stuff like cleaning out of the way. Nap time is my time to kind of lose myself in a project. Now if I could only get them to nap together on a regular basis.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Turns out I need it.
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I am sorry to hear that you are down, but I am glad to hear that you have found sewing and creating bring you some peace and contentment as they have for me and many other women over the years. I guess in a lot of ways, that's what quilting was and is all about. Some day soon you'll be able to move from Quartzsite, and then you'll miss the simple days of sitting at home with two little boys (notice I didn't say, "quiet days") Keep up the good work. I KNOW!!! come up for Thanksgiving and stay with us through Christmas! That way you'll get your season fix and we'll get our grandbaby and Kelsey fix and then you'll think sitting at home in Quartzsite is a good idea!
Yes, yes, yes! Come up and stay!!
Plus, you know I'm glad that you are needing a project AND you're enjoying sewing stuff, since I just sent you the mother of all projects!! :)
love ya Kels..
OUTLET! We all need one. I'm glad you've found yours! (And I'm glad it's such a useful one). If I have more babies will you make me a blanket? It might almost be worth having another... almost.
Love you Kels!
I agree, an outlet is necessary, especially for us where we don't have family close by. It's hard sometimes. I also hear you about the seasons. I miss the snow so much, although I think we get more of a change of seasons in South Carolina than you do. If I didn't have a career to go back to after Macias was born I would be very down since I don't have friends or family here (I'll clarify - friends who don't work and who have kids). We need to do the video chat again!
love you!
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