AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!! I can't take being pregnant for one single second more! No, I have no woes that are any worse than any other pregnant persons, and yes, I'm very grateful that I am having a healthy, relatively easy pregnancy. Even so, sweet mother, make it stop! I'm so fat and achy, and I can't bend over, and I can't be nice to anybody, and I'm tired of being snappy and mean to my children, and I wish I had the energy to do the millions of things that need to be done around here, and I'm tired of all the peeing, and I wish that I hadn't been told I'm three centimeters dilated because that just gives me false hope that this will go somewhere. I want to go into labor like yesterday, but that brings up a whole host of issues, will my children lose their minds if I leave them at the neighbors even though they know them and are comfortable with them? Will Lee be at work at the time which means he has at least an hour drive to get home before we even begin our hour drive to the hospital? Will I be giving birth on the side of the road? This time around I'm group B positive, so will I make it to the hospital in time to get antibiotics so my baby doesn't have to potentially get some horrible infection. And at the same time, I can't go into labor! My mom has missed the births of both of my other children by like a day. She's always nearly here, and they decide to show up, I'd like her to be able to be there for the last one. So suppose I make it to the 25th, when I'm supposed to be induced due to my crazy fast birth last time and distance from the hospital, can I be induced without Pitocin? And whether or not I have Pitocin can I do it without an epidural again? Because, man I felt so much better after my natural childbirth than I did after my pitocin/epidural one. And oh yeah! I'm having a baby within the next ten days! I can't do this again! The first six weeks kills me! How am I going to manage three kids!? I feel like I'm just now figuring out how to have two.
Holy cow, if you're still reading you're a better friend than I give you credit for. Do you ever wish you could just turn your brain off? I'm tired of thinking. I know after all is said and done I'll look back and wonder what the heck I was so worried about, but I'm not there yet. And now I'm going to the gas station to get some potato chips, I don't know why, they just sound good. And I've only got ten more days of eating whatever the heck I want. I'm contemplating having a Blizzard for dinner as well.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Just getting some things off my mind
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This sounds all so familiar! I had these same feelings a year ago before Cassidy was born. I was so stressed that I had a meltdown at church and was crying in the hall (because of that, I got released early from my calling). I don't know if it helps for me to say this, but you ARE going to be able to handle it all! You'll get through it and you'll have a beautiful new baby to hold.
Who said this one was your "last"? Now there's a bright thought for you! I know it's impossible to listen to people who tell you not to worry about things - but, don't worry about things. Worrying never gets you anywhere. Just plan as much as you can and do what you can and then leave it in the Lord's hands. Look back when things seemed overwhelming to you in the past and realize that somehow or another, things always work out. I will hopefully be able to be there for this one - keep your legs crossed! Quit stressing, relax and eat your potato chips! Love, Mom
I can't believe you're about to have your baby! I'm with your mom, who says it's your last...and eat those potato chips!
Can I add chocolate dipped Oreos to the menu? Or Grasshoppers? OOOHHH, or chocolate CAKESTERS (like, the ones with the chocolate filling?) All of those things are guaranteed to calm the mind.
I totally hear ALL of those feelings. Lay down, watch a movie, eat stuff-all will be well.
I don't understand this ranting. I mean, I would never say so, but my friends tell me that I am the best pregnant lady around..you know, no aches, I gain 5lbs, I have SO much energy, and then I have the EASIEST, well-planned births that go perfectly according to how I want them to go.
Sorry I can't relate. Sucks to be you.
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